The Gossip- Saturdance

I find huge inspiration in Beth Ditto and Hannah Blilie. Not only for body acceptance aspects but as a gay fat chick, it's hard to find someone like you. In no way to I think I'm nearly as talented as Beth Ditto, but I admire her attitude and I feel like I'm similar in that way. I have no problem talking about being gay or being fat. I don't really have a problem talking about anything if you ask, but fat gay chicks are defiantly a minority and I get excited when I find one. I'm including two videos for you today. One of an awesome Gossip song and one of the band talking about being young and gay. Have a great day everyone!

Lazy day OOTD

This was a casual kick back day and I figured I'd show you what I wear when I'm being lazy. Also I'm pretty sure this or a variation of will be my go to look this summer at camp. It's comfy, and easy to move in. I don't feel self conscious in it and without trying I kind of look like Hunter S. Thompson. I totally wasn't trying to, but when I was editing these photos I realized that I kinda look like a more feminine version of Hunter S Thompson from Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas. I feel like if I do, I'm gunna work it!

Top- Target (ages ago)

shorts- JC Penny

leggings- Target

Shoes- Blowfish

Hope everyone is having a great day :)

Here is a blooper! I see all the cool kids doing jumping shots, so I tried! I think I need to prefect this a little more before I post a real jumping shot! Oh well, I got off the ground at least!!!!

Monday is the new Sunday! Vlog time

As promised. Monday is the new Sunday. Here is the Vlog I owed everyone. I hope you all have a great night. If you have a minute, my friend Anna is starting a travel blog, to chronicle her adventures from England over to the U.S. to work at summer camp. Up and Away is super cute and totally worth checking out!

Naked in my bathing suit!

So I know I'm not the only one who feels self conscious in a bathing suit. It's something I have struggled with for a long time and for many years I refused to buy a bathing suit. In all honesty I feel more comfortable being naked rather then wearing a suit. I would wear shorts and a tank top to swim in and while I will not be wearing an itty bitty two piece I have decided to through caution to the wind and embrace the idea of a bathing suit.

I like to think that I dress well. I try to wear things that flatter my body, but I've come to a realization that even if I'm wearing the cutest, most flattering outfit, I'm still going to be fat. No matter how well something is draped or ruched, I'm not going to look like a skinny mini. In all honesty I don't want to. I dress for myself and wear what makes me feels good and what I think looks good on me. So with that being said I bought myself a two piece bathing suit. It's fashionable and doesn't look like my grandma gave it to me!

So to fully declare my body acceptance I am showing the world me, naked in my bathing suit.

I'm not wearing any makeup, no hairspray, no body shaper, this is me and my body in my swim suit and I couldn't be more happy!

 Top- Target

Bottom- Torrid

Glasses- CoastalContacts.com

This really is a big deal for me and a huge step forward in my self image. I truly hope this gives a few of you some courage to do the same.

I have to mention that blogging has helped me feel more comfortable in my own skin.Being able to share my thoughts and feelings towards body image, life's trials and tribulations is huge!  Knowing that others are reading and that I'm not the only one that feels that way is life changing. It helps seeing other bloggers like, Amy over at Vanagon Champion , and Rachele at the Nearsighted Owl, be advocates of self acceptance inspire me to do the same and share more. If you haven't had a chance to check them out I totally suggest that you do!

Thank you everyone for coming and checking out my little life hurdle. I feel so great about this and I totally give myself a gold star! 

2 Questions Vlog

Thanks to Elycia from LoveElycia and Rachele from The Nearsighted Owl for starting this fun Vlog game. I think this tag is a great way to get to know bloggers and maybe make a few new friends along the way! I look forward to seeing what everyone comes up with! Happy Sunday!

Make sure to go check out Rachele's  Vlog...

 The Nearsighted Owl

Welcome back me!

Hey Everyone. Life has been insane! It's been good and bad, and everything in between. Since I've been gone I've gotten a few more followers (thank you!) and doubled the amount of views. I remember one of my lasts posts was talking about how I hit 1000 views and a week or so ago I hit 2000. It took 6 months to get to 1000 and only another month to get to another 1000. It amazes me still that anyone actually looks at my little slice! I know it's Sunday, which usually means Vlog day, but my camera is dead and I just wanted to get something up for ya'll!  My birthday week vacation turned into a month of no blogging and while it was nice not to have to plan things and worry about making sure that I took enough pictures, I totally missed it and couldn't wait to pick up were I left off. So much has been going on that painting my nails and wearing makeup hasn't been the first priority. 

     My Birthday was awesome. I love going back to Sacramento to visit and I have a great time. Turning 27 wasn't anything crazy, but we did alot of fun stuff including, I bought my first Luchador mask! I'm pretty scary now, so don't mess with me!!

    I've been doing a lot stuff for Oh SweetHenry. I've been a cutting, beading, gluing machine! We now have the Etsy store as well as we are selling in a couple shops locally. I've been working hard on creating a brand for Oh SweetHenry. I want there to be a cohesive look when you buy something from us that it's packaged properly and has a signature style. 

 A couple of weeks ago the pipes in our house backed up due to tree roots in the pipe. We had to dig up the driveway and replace the pipes. It was a week long process that wasn't pretty. Thanks to our great friends who lent us their restrooms and laundry facilities! We also had some amazing friends helping us dig and repair, that was a huge help. 

     I enrolled in school to start classes in the fall. The community college were I live offers a program called :Baking for entrapanurs , which is exactly what I need! Perfect!

     I'm helping a friend out who is in hair school. I'm going to be a hair model for her first fashion show! I'm excited and a little nervous. I don't want to fall on my face!

 Tiny Mr. Cameron came home last week. (If you missed that post, my closed friend in Sonora had a baby 2 months early). He is doing great and is up to 4 pounds now! Last week was the baby shower, so a few of us went to set up early and make sure everything ran smoothly. Cameron came home Monday Jim and I have been over there a couple times this week. We made them dinner one night and Emily called the other day and asked if I would come over so she could take a shower! Her husband is out of town for a couple days (always perfect timing!) so I'm on call right now! 

     The huge news that I waited to tell you guys is that I have been hired by the Girl Scouts to work at a summer camp this summer. I'm going to be a lead councilor (supervisor) of arts and crafts. When I got the job offer I was amazed that I get to play with kids, craft and I GET PAID for it!!!!! I'm going to write a whole post about camp stuff so I won't go on much further about it now. 

P.S. These are pictures from my instagram, which you can follow me using the name Elocininabox

I just wanted to update everyone on what's been going on with me and why I've been M.I.A.  I'm excited to be back and I have lots planned! Thanks for sticking around and being patient. I luv you all!

Vlog Sunday- Birthdays, Babies, and Bad Weather!

United states of Nicole

Did any of you lovelies watch "United States of Tara". Jim and I found it on Netflix and got so engrossed in it that we watched all 3 seasons in two days.  If you haven't seen the show, it's about a woman (Tara) who has multiple personalities and her life with her family and how they deal with her and her "alters". One of the alters is Alice. Alice is this lady who jumps straight out of 1950 and is a "June Cleaver" type. 

I'm saying all of this, because this is my Alice outfit. When I got dressed  I looked at myself in the miror and totally thought that this was my version of "Alice". 

We are 2 days into our vacation. We are headed to our favorite bar tonight and meeting up with some great friends. Sacramento is always so nice to visit. When I was young I alsways talked about moving and not living there anymore and how happy I would be, but when I visit , the place still feels like home and I could totally see our little family being back and totally happy! I miss being able to ride my bike to the grocery store and walking to go get coffee and donuts in the morning. You can't really walk anywere in Sonora.

Ok well Im off. Enjoy your day everyone! See you tomorrow for Saturdance!!!!

 

OOTD-

T-shirt- walmart

Sweater- Torrid

Skirt/dress- Kohl's

Shoes- don't remember :(

Homemade Apple Turnovers!

Jim requested that I make these and to be honest I was a little intimidated when he told me what he wanted. Apple turnovers sound hard and time consuming. I hoped on the Internet and started to do some research. After looking at a few recipes I started to realize that these wouldn't be hard at all. The key is the puff pastry, now you can make you own but the dough is super temperamental and is hard to work with so I opted to buy the pre-made kind.  Here's what else you'll need....

INGREDIENTS

• ONE PACKAGE OF FROZEN FILO DOUGH
• 4 APPLES OF YOUR CHOICE (I LIKE GRANNY SMITH)
• 1C BROWN SUGAR
• CINNAMON TO YOUR LIKING
• 1 TBSP CORN STARCH
• 1 TBSP WATER
• 1 EGG
• 2 TBSP BUTTER
• SUGAR IN THE RAW (OR ANY KIND OF LARGER GRANULATED SUGAR)

Pre-heat oven to 400F degrees

 Start off by peeling your apples and slicing them into small cubes. As you slice them you can put them in a bowl of cool water with a little lemon juice so they don't turn brown. Once all four of your apples are cut, grab a skillet and put on Medium heat. Melt the butter in the pan and add the apples (make sure apples are not super wet if you did the water bath), add your Cinnamon to your liking and let cook for 2 minutes.

Next add in your brown sugar. In a small bowl mix the corn starch and water together. Add the cornstarch mixture to your apples and mix well. This will make the liquid in the pan thicker and more of a sauce. Cook this mixture for another 2 minutes and then set aside.

Grab your Filo dough and take out one of the sheets, lay it out flat and cut into 4 equal squares. I strongly recommend that you keep the other sheet of filo in the fridge until you are ready to use. If it sits out and warms up, it becomes this sticky, gooey mess and it's super hard to work with. 

Now your ready for apples! Grab a spoon with slats in it, so the liquid can drain out. Spoon in the apples to the middle of each square of dough. Fold the dough over itself on the diagonal to create a triangle. Make sure that you seal the ends by pressing down on the edges with your fingers or a fork. (I did both to make sure that I sealed them all the way). Take out your other sheet of dough and repeat these steps. You will have 8 turnovers all together.

In a small bowl or cup crack your egg, but only put the white of the egg in bowl. add a small amount of water to your egg whites and mix. You just made an egg wash! Brush the egg mixtures onto the tops of your turnovers. Finally Generously sprinkle your raw sugar on top of the pastries. 

Bake at 400f degrees for 20 minutes. Let cool for a few minutes and then enjoy. 

 Let me tell you, these bad boys are impressive. Our friends couldn't believe that I had made these.  I am still getting compliments on how good they were. If you can spare a half hour of your day to making these, you will be the talk of the town! I also made a batch for Jim and I and stuck them in the freezer and we just grab 2 in the morning and put them in the toaster oven for a minutes and they are super good!

Have a great day! See you tomorrow!

Fat, Sexy, Saturdance

this weeks Saterdance is a little risque. I love the band Uh Huh Her and this is one of my favorite songs by them. This song makes you feel sexual and dance-y all at the same time. It's a perfect sex jam and you know what I might have had sex to this song. I think that being sexual is not something one should have to hide, in fact I think you should be proud of it. Yell it from the rooftops if you'd like! 

As a plus size gal your not supposed to be sexual at all! The two main unspoken rules for fat people are... not to be seen eating, and don't be thought of sexually (unless you are some sort of fat fetish person). No one wants to think of fat people having sex, fat jiggling and flopping all over the place. ewww.  Well excuse me, but FUCK that.

I am fat. People see it and there is no hiding it. I am me and part of me is my size. Part of me is that I'm a sexual person and I have some dam good sex. What I'm trying to say here is, be proud of you. You only have one life and making the most of it is the only thing that makes seance. So if your fat and you want to dance to a sexy song, dance. If you want to go to a nude beach and strut, then do it. 

Happy Saturdance y'all!

Have a great weekend and I'll see you tomorrow for Vlog Sunday

Eye Rock, stick on Eyeliner Review.

I recently hopped on the beauty box band wagon. I liked the idea because when it comes to makeup I never know what to get. I tend to stick to the same things and I want to venture out of my comfort zone and try some new stuff. So for ten bucks a month I get this box of new things to try and then if I like it then I can get the full size discounted. 

In my first box I got a purfume sample, tinted moisturizer, mouthwash, face cream and these bad boys. 

The pack came with 4 stick on eye liners. You can cut them to fit. The material is kind of like medical tape. I was super curios about these. 

grab one of the ends with tweezers and lift it away from the paper. Hold it close to your eye and see if you need to cut any of the excess off. I had to snip the inner corners off.

the back is super sticky so make sure the the placement is in the correct spot. When you have it all lined up, press down with your index finger .

 

 

When you apply these, the package says to clean area and apply them with no makeup on. I found that to be a little funny because I usually put on liner last.  After they are applied you can put on your makeup. There may be a few places you have to fill in with your liner.

 

I will say that the inner corners started to peel almost immedietly.  I think puting on eyeshadow made it worse. After about an hour the liner was lifted about halfway. Good thing I wear glasses! I took them off after about 2 hours because they stoped lifting, but the first half was flapping every time I blinked! They felt kinda weird being on my eyes (it's kinda the same feeling when you wear fake lashes). All in all I will try them again, but I'm still super skeptical about them and at the same time, it's almost easier to just put on eyeliner. Also I feel like the liners are really wide. I usually do my liner about half the thickness of these. I don't think that I would purchase these, but it was fun to try them out.

Happy Friday y'all. I'm looking forward to Saterdance this week. Also if you have some suggestions for Vlog day, let me know what you would like to see.

OOTD

Today I had to go to DMV. I dread going there. So much so that my car registration was late! I have nightmeres about going to DMV and I'm pretty sure that the first zombie came from DMV.

 When I went there today though we were in and out in less then 20 minutes. That has never happened. Usually I will walk in and get my little ticket and there is only one other person in there with me and it still takes an hour. For some reason today though, the god's of DMV shined down on me and took pitty on my impatient soul! 

OOTD

Sweater and skirt- Target

White tee and belt- Target 

Leggings- Target 

Flats- Payless 

Hair flower- Oh SweetHenry

 Here are a couple of outtakes!!!!

 

Hair and Makeup in ten minutes-ish!

This week I set myself a challenge to do my makeup and hair in ten minutes. It was hard! I think me being frantic made it take longer. Also this was my first time editing a video, so it's a little choppy, but all in all, I'm pretty proud. Enjoy!

Saturday = Saturdance!!!!!

Saturday is going to be Saturdance!!!! I will share an awesome tid bit that will make you want to shake and shimmy ever Saturday. I'm super stoked about this and I figured I would start things off right!!!! 

New found Freedom

     Don't let me fool you, I totally only wore those shoes for the photos! I will say that when I opt for heels that I normally go for wedges. They are more comfortable and easier to walk in and no matter what heels I wear my feet are going to feel like they might fall off, so I need all they help I can get.





 

OOTD- 

Tanks & Jeans- F21 

Cardigan- target 

Suede wedges- New look (like 2 years ago) 

Necklace & bracelets- F21



      So with my tax return, I need to get new glasses! The ones I have now are so old that the protective coating is flaking off. It like constantly looking through a dirty window. With my new found freedom I am finally getting to do what I want and not having to adhere to rules! I think I might get some cat eye glasses or something equally awesome and vintage inspired. 

     I'm really enjoying having purple hair and I have been getting a lot of complements too. I'm also getting a lot of looks and a lot of questions about how I did it. Living in a tiny town full of super conservative types is probably not the most conducive to my new creative and free outlook.

Purple People Eater... Eat your heart out!

When I started out on this adventure my first thought was "I wanna look like a Mermaid. Oh, or a Unicorn!" I Google imaged Unicorn hair and got a whole lot of awesome stuff, but nothing to really help me out. My hair to start out with was a tinge of lavender so I figured I would roll with it and just make it more extreme. Thanks to a butt load of you tube videos and Kaylah from The Dainty Squid(she had some awesome hair advice and tips) I embarked on a shopping journey. I pick up two purple-y colors and some conditioner to mix in so that it came out a pastel-ish color 

  

I have some roots but not bad enough to bleach my hair. So I threw on an old tee and said good bye to by blonde hair!

I mixed the color, doing equal parts conditioner to dye. To be honest I was nervous about this because in hair school we always used conditioner to repel dye.  P.S. did you notice that in the above picture, I'm missing half an eyebrow? :) Haha  Anyways, Jim slapped on some gloves and helped me slather the color on. 

 

I decided to slice in some of both colors to create dimension. I thought it would add to the Unicorn effect!

I let the dye sit for two hours. That's when I did yesterday's blog post! Normally with colorful dyes like the package says to only leave it on for a 20-30 minutes, but realistically you can leave it on as long as you like. There is no peroxide or ammonia in these types of dyes to harm your hair. I usually leave dye on for 2-3 hours. 

 I'm pretty attractive in this picture!  When I rinsed my hair out I used cold water. You wanna used as cold as you can stand. This will lock in your color.  It also helps if you use a Sulfate free shampoo. From now on I'm going to keep a bottle in the shower with a mixture of what I like to call "Unicorn juice", it's a mixture of the hair dye and conditioner, that that it's like getting a tough up every time you take a shower. Let your Unicorn juice sit on your hair for 5-10 minutes in the shower and it will give your mane a fresh blast of color. 

 

I'm pretty happy with how it turned out. I think when I bleach my roots in a couple weeks I do another update and let you know how it went, but in real like I totally look like a unicorn.  On a side note, Jim wanted to join in the fun and he decided he wanted to be a dragon, so he dyed his beard green!

Thanks for stopping by and until next time be safe and have fun. Tootles. Oh don't forget to subscribe!!!!!

Storms A Brewin'

This is the outfit I was wearing in yesterdays video. I really liked it and thought I would share it with all of you! I bought these jeans online from Forever 21 and I was a little nervous about them fitting, but they look pretty good. They are not very thick jean material, I normally go for thicker material because the thinner stuff gives me what Jim calls (front butt). Haha. I can't believe I just wrote that and now am going to talk about "front butt" on the Internet! Front but is wear your pants are snug enough to make a dent in your belly and well, it looks like a butt. From time to time this happens to even the most put together of us chubby chicks. The thinner the pants are the more noticeable, or more often the front butt phenomena may happen.

I'm going to start off by saying I used to hate Uggs. With a Passion! I hated seeing girls in the city with Uggs and mini skits on. What is the point of that. Living in California I often see people wearing leg warmers with flip flops and I have been guilty of wearing scarves with t-shirts, but the Uggs trend just sent me over the edge. This may stem from the fact that my college professor drilled it into our brains that Uggs were made by the devil. To him Uggs being worn anywhere except Australia was like going outside your house in Pajama pants. I refused to fall into the Ugg trend... until I moved to the woods. I still refused to pay for Uggs so I settled for the off brand Uggs (what I like to call Fuggs) I wear my Fuggs when it's super cold, raining real bad, or light snow. I live basically at the snow line. At my house we get 3 or 4 really good snow storms during the winter, but literally if you drive ten minutes from my house, you are in a chain zone, people are snowed in, and out of power at least half the winter. Now Fuggs are not good for lots of snow because they don't have a whole lot of traction, but a light dusting is ok. So the point of me saying that is because It was raining pretty bad yesterday, hence me wearing my Fuggs!  With the impending snow coming tonight I'm held, Jim and I stocked up on foods, filled our netflix Que and I stocked up on crafty things.  It's supposed to hit tonight and we will see how bad it really it. 

I think it's a little funny that just a few posts ago I was talking about how it feel like spring in January and now we are held up in the house waiting for the storm to pass! Oh well. What is the weather like were you live? 

 OOTD-

Black and stripy tank- target (I think)

Red Bow tank & Necklace- Forever 21

Blue Black jeans- forever 21

Fuggs- Payless shoes

Cardigan- Ross

Hair flower- Local Salon

Thanks for stopping by. Be safe everyone and until next time tootles. Don't forget to Subscribe :)