Naked in my bathing suit!

So I know I'm not the only one who feels self conscious in a bathing suit. It's something I have struggled with for a long time and for many years I refused to buy a bathing suit. In all honesty I feel more comfortable being naked rather then wearing a suit. I would wear shorts and a tank top to swim in and while I will not be wearing an itty bitty two piece I have decided to through caution to the wind and embrace the idea of a bathing suit.

I like to think that I dress well. I try to wear things that flatter my body, but I've come to a realization that even if I'm wearing the cutest, most flattering outfit, I'm still going to be fat. No matter how well something is draped or ruched, I'm not going to look like a skinny mini. In all honesty I don't want to. I dress for myself and wear what makes me feels good and what I think looks good on me. So with that being said I bought myself a two piece bathing suit. It's fashionable and doesn't look like my grandma gave it to me!

So to fully declare my body acceptance I am showing the world me, naked in my bathing suit.

I'm not wearing any makeup, no hairspray, no body shaper, this is me and my body in my swim suit and I couldn't be more happy!

 Top- Target

Bottom- Torrid

Glasses- CoastalContacts.com

This really is a big deal for me and a huge step forward in my self image. I truly hope this gives a few of you some courage to do the same.

I have to mention that blogging has helped me feel more comfortable in my own skin.Being able to share my thoughts and feelings towards body image, life's trials and tribulations is huge!  Knowing that others are reading and that I'm not the only one that feels that way is life changing. It helps seeing other bloggers like, Amy over at Vanagon Champion , and Rachele at the Nearsighted Owl, be advocates of self acceptance inspire me to do the same and share more. If you haven't had a chance to check them out I totally suggest that you do!

Thank you everyone for coming and checking out my little life hurdle. I feel so great about this and I totally give myself a gold star! 

Creamy Polenta with Meatballs.

I know that I normally stick to baking posts, but I thought I would mix it up and write about dinner this time. When we stayed with friends in Sacramento, they made us this awesome recipe and when we got home I had to try it myself. It's fairly simple and easy to make. Although this was my first time cooking polenta. I leaned that you need to look for the fine grain kind when doing creamy polenta. We did not do this and our was a little gritty. It still tasted great and would make it again, it was just "different" this time. Lets get started.

Meatball Ingredients:

1lb. Ground beef (you can use turkey/pork or a mixture if you like)

1/4 medium yellow onion

tsp garlic (I use pre-chopped)

dash of pepper

dash of salt

dash of red pepper flake

1/8 cup Parmesan cheese 

1/4 cup Italian style bread crumbs

1 egg

Preheat oven to 350F degrees

 

 Mix all the ingredients together and shape into balls. I made 12 meatballs and it worked out great for us. We had enough for that night and then lunch the next day. In a pan brown all sides of the meatball and then stick in the oven for about a half hour.

While your balls are in the oven (ha ha) you can start your polenta. 

Polenta ingredients:

4cups chicken stalk

1 cup polenta (not the instant kind)

1/2 cup milk or cream

3 Tbsp butter

mozzarella cheese

salt and pepper to taste

  In a large saucepan bring the chicken stalk to a boil and then whisk in the polenta and butter. Let cook for about 15 minutes on medium heat, stirring frequently. The polenta will start to thicken, add in the milk and desired amount of cheese and seasonings and cook for another ten minutes.

 

 At this point your going to need marinara sauce. I just used a can of pre-made stuff and added some onions and seasonings. Heat that for about 5 minutes and then your ready to plate!

Here it is. It turned out super yummy and will totally make it again. I don't think my photo does it justice, but it really was great. I served this with a side salad and both of us were stuffed. 

Have a great day y'all.

Fat, Sexy, Saturdance

this weeks Saterdance is a little risque. I love the band Uh Huh Her and this is one of my favorite songs by them. This song makes you feel sexual and dance-y all at the same time. It's a perfect sex jam and you know what I might have had sex to this song. I think that being sexual is not something one should have to hide, in fact I think you should be proud of it. Yell it from the rooftops if you'd like! 

As a plus size gal your not supposed to be sexual at all! The two main unspoken rules for fat people are... not to be seen eating, and don't be thought of sexually (unless you are some sort of fat fetish person). No one wants to think of fat people having sex, fat jiggling and flopping all over the place. ewww.  Well excuse me, but FUCK that.

I am fat. People see it and there is no hiding it. I am me and part of me is my size. Part of me is that I'm a sexual person and I have some dam good sex. What I'm trying to say here is, be proud of you. You only have one life and making the most of it is the only thing that makes seance. So if your fat and you want to dance to a sexy song, dance. If you want to go to a nude beach and strut, then do it. 

Happy Saturdance y'all!

Have a great weekend and I'll see you tomorrow for Vlog Sunday

DIY Peter Pan Collar

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I love the idea of being able to put a collar on anything you want, so I thought I would join the masses and make myself a Peter Pan collar. Here is my take on this super cute and dainty fashion trend.

SUPPLIES

• NEWSPAPER (OR PLAIN PAPER)
• SCISSORS
• SCRAP FABRIC (OR A FAT QUARTER WILL DO)
• INTERFACING
• SEWING SUPPLIES/MACHINE (OR NEEDLE AND THREAD)
• HOOK AND EYE
• OPTIONAL: IRON

To get started take your newspaper and fold in half. Draw a template for your Peter Pan collar on the fold so that it will be symmetrical. I've seen a couple of different styles of the collar, so I leave the design up to you but you could also print out my photo and enlarge and use the one I have made :) To make it a bit easier on you here are a few pieces of advice... I took my neck measurement and divided by 2 and x pi. Just like making a circle skirt. Then for the outside, I free handed the shape I wanted and I had to try a couple times before I got the shape I wanted. also once you have your pattern make sure you try it on and then cut what you don't need in the back off.

Next take your fabric and pin your pattern. When you cut out make sure to leave plenty of seam allowance. You will need two pieces (a front and a back).

After that you will need to cut out two pieces of interfacing (one for each side). Use the fabric as your guide to cut out the interfacing because you will need the seam allowance. I got fusible interfacing and it added another step for me, but I find it easier to work with. If you are using the fusible kind you will iron it down to the wrong sides of each piece. P.S you iron shiny side down. 

Once you have all your pieces it's time to assemble (News Teams Assemble!), sorry that was a lame Anchor man reference. You want good sides together, so it should interfacing, fabric, fabric, interfacing. Pin your fabric sandwich together. As a guide I traced the original pattern onto one side so I could use it as a reference. It actually helped a lot. 

Next grab your sewing machine or needle and thread and sew around your lines, making sure to leave both ends open and and one end a two inch slit so you can turn it right side out.  I started sewing at the scallop point and I triple stitched right there to ensure that it would make a crisp point. 

Once you have sewn completely around (except the ends and the slit) it's time to turn this bad right side out. I did not leave a two inch gap and let me tell you this was a pain in the ass! This was single handily the most time consuming part of the whole project! Put on some good music and start pulling. 

Once you have it all turned, you may need to iron it flat, mine was pretty wrinkly from all the torture! It's time to attache the hook and eye. Now this is were you can get creative, if you don't want to use a hook and eye you can use ribbon or even a necklace chain. It's all up to you. I didn't have a hook and eye but I had pants closure so I used that. Attach your choice of fastener and your done! I like a dumb ass forget to take a photo of the finished product, but I will be in an upcoming outfit post. 

If you make your own Peter Pan collar I would love to see it. If you have any questions feel free to drop me a line! Have a great Wednesday y'all and don't forget to subscribe!

Happy Valentine's day. He's the Jam to my toast!

My special man. Valentines day is not such a big deal, in fact we are both still in out pj's and mister is going to go take some trash to the dump today. I think I'm going to touch up my roots and work on some etsy stuff. With all of the non-holiday stuff going on I thought I would take a moment out of my day to mention how much I love my husband. We have been through a lot in the past year, but with each day we grow more and more and my love grows stronger with passing moment. I know mushy, but it's true. Four years has flown by and I can't believe that I get to spend the rest of my life with this guy. He always doubts me, but he really is the coolest guy I know. Our love has had ups and downs and life isn't always the easiest, but I love this roller coaster and I am so glad to be on this ride with you.  I love you Mr. Jim! Happy Valentines day, now here is a random montage of my handsome husband!!!! Be jealous! :)

P.S. this also a tribute to past hair styles and colors!

Hair and Makeup in ten minutes-ish!

This week I set myself a challenge to do my makeup and hair in ten minutes. It was hard! I think me being frantic made it take longer. Also this was my first time editing a video, so it's a little choppy, but all in all, I'm pretty proud. Enjoy!

Saturday = Saturdance!!!!!

Saturday is going to be Saturdance!!!! I will share an awesome tid bit that will make you want to shake and shimmy ever Saturday. I'm super stoked about this and I figured I would start things off right!!!! 

Storms A Brewin'

This is the outfit I was wearing in yesterdays video. I really liked it and thought I would share it with all of you! I bought these jeans online from Forever 21 and I was a little nervous about them fitting, but they look pretty good. They are not very thick jean material, I normally go for thicker material because the thinner stuff gives me what Jim calls (front butt). Haha. I can't believe I just wrote that and now am going to talk about "front butt" on the Internet! Front but is wear your pants are snug enough to make a dent in your belly and well, it looks like a butt. From time to time this happens to even the most put together of us chubby chicks. The thinner the pants are the more noticeable, or more often the front butt phenomena may happen.

I'm going to start off by saying I used to hate Uggs. With a Passion! I hated seeing girls in the city with Uggs and mini skits on. What is the point of that. Living in California I often see people wearing leg warmers with flip flops and I have been guilty of wearing scarves with t-shirts, but the Uggs trend just sent me over the edge. This may stem from the fact that my college professor drilled it into our brains that Uggs were made by the devil. To him Uggs being worn anywhere except Australia was like going outside your house in Pajama pants. I refused to fall into the Ugg trend... until I moved to the woods. I still refused to pay for Uggs so I settled for the off brand Uggs (what I like to call Fuggs) I wear my Fuggs when it's super cold, raining real bad, or light snow. I live basically at the snow line. At my house we get 3 or 4 really good snow storms during the winter, but literally if you drive ten minutes from my house, you are in a chain zone, people are snowed in, and out of power at least half the winter. Now Fuggs are not good for lots of snow because they don't have a whole lot of traction, but a light dusting is ok. So the point of me saying that is because It was raining pretty bad yesterday, hence me wearing my Fuggs!  With the impending snow coming tonight I'm held, Jim and I stocked up on foods, filled our netflix Que and I stocked up on crafty things.  It's supposed to hit tonight and we will see how bad it really it. 

I think it's a little funny that just a few posts ago I was talking about how it feel like spring in January and now we are held up in the house waiting for the storm to pass! Oh well. What is the weather like were you live? 

 OOTD-

Black and stripy tank- target (I think)

Red Bow tank & Necklace- Forever 21

Blue Black jeans- forever 21

Fuggs- Payless shoes

Cardigan- Ross

Hair flower- Local Salon

Thanks for stopping by. Be safe everyone and until next time tootles. Don't forget to Subscribe :)

Sunday is my Funday!!!

Photo dump

It was getting time to dump off some photos from my phone onto my computer. I thought I would share some photos with you and a little insight into my daily life. Enjoy :)

In the service elevator at work.

sleepy man

Cadell and his Mucho Mamma!

The bathroom rug jacket

Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough Pie!!!! yummmm

Frank's tongue doesn't fit in his mouth.

Sacramento bound

Kitty Litter cake for my mother-in-law

Jim accessorizing

Mr. December

am I bugging you?

waffle cup nipples

champagne nipples and caviar dreams

Oreo stuffed Chocolate chip cookies

My running errands outfit.